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anyway, worth a listen. if one digs placebo. english summer rain and sleeping with ghosts. i didn't catch a chance to check out the rest of the album cos i had to run. the guitar riffs in english summer rain are pretty good. an urgent and yet calm feel to it.

had a good day again...i guess i need to record down the good days and not just complain about the bad days simply cos sometimes, i just need to remind myself that life really doesn't always suck. it's the simple things..the simple things...just gotta remember the simple things...the little souvenirs of a terrible year..

i was beaming from ear to ear even before she said pens down. i was laughing at every small little silly sound i heard the other students making, irritated at themselves. everything didn't fail to amuse me. i finished the paper earlier than expected and nothing could turn the corners of my mouth down. THEN.....

then, after gleefully handing in the paper, i found out that i had just broken the guinness world record for the most number of careless mistakes in an exam ever. YOU GO GIRL! haha. all those marks, just thrown away like that, blown all over the place like dust in the wind. BUT...

but, i was still soooooo happy that a few, ok, alot, of marks, blasted away like that, failed to bring me down, down, down. i was elated. i was too damn happy. i just couldn't stop smiling. and i just couldn't help it. (head and shoulders advert, goosebumps) a whole bunch of us went for a really good lunch at magic wok. then a few of us went shopping. then i rushed down to PS as fast i could, was too carried away shopping. i don't even like shopping, but finally got myself some cash. as i was saying, rushed down to PS to....

to watch animatrix! and immediately after that, matrix reloaded. i thought both shows were really really awesome. but alot of pple don't seem to share the same sentiments as me. oh well. i still think it was damn bloody rawkin! anyway after that, i had to rush down again to...

to my house. haha. only to change and grab my tennis raquet and rush out again to meet a few friends for tennis. i even forgot to eat. at this moment, i still haven't eaten my dinner. but i'm not that hungry. sleepy i guess. what do u expect? i watched 2 movies straight...2 really zombifying movies!

i guess i've had a pretty satisfying day all in all. i actually wanted to type about something else. i don't know why i had this need to type out what i did today. i'll type out what i wanted to type out another day. basically cos i gotta run now. BUT...

but i was soooo happy that nothing oh nothing could bring me down, down, down.....

it's like an everlasting sauna, i tell you. these past few nights of may, my pyjamas cling to my sweaty body as i toss and turn on my bed, trying to find the coolest position to sleep in. the fan's on at full blast, but what use is a blast of hot wind on a hot tuesday night, or wednesday night, or thursday night?? yes, all the nights i haven't been able to sleep well. i turn on the aircon and switch off the fan. it's still too hot, something's wrong with the aircon. i switch both on. too cold, too thirsty! the aircon's too drying.. i sleep on the opposite end of the bed. nar, just not it. sleep has been a torturous affair, i tell you. sleep and i, we've been having a love-hate relationship. i really want to sleep, but it's such a nightmarish affair! i hope i'll be able to sleep well tonight. i really miss sleep! i really miss sleep sleep. the overwhelming number of waking hours are driving me insane, causing me to have a perpetual frown or squint or whatever, simply because i'm struggling to keep my eyes open, my eyes which are but mere slits now. oh gosh. i need to sleep so desperately. good night!

life seems so diiferent through my eyes as the days pass me by this week. i don't know. i feel less scared of being alone now, maybe. i don't really bother being too fussy about who i'm with anymore. it just hasn't mattered too much to me this week. i feel more free. i feel different. light. (could still lose a coupla pounds or more.) sailing through life like a feather in the wind. something's definitely brewing in me. something wonderful.

there are days when i walk alone. when i have to take the train home alone. when i have to spend a free period or two in school alone. or whatever. it doesn't bother me so much anymore. the result of faith? perhaps.

i found myself in borders today browsing through the poetry of shel silverstein. a childlike voice at the heart of each poem. so simple yet so profound. and at times, just plain silly. so there i was, sitting on a bench there, scribbling down profusely poem after poem which i enjoyed in my notebook. here's one i rather liked. i liked alot actually. but well, this is kind of related to today's blog topic. it's called NOBODY.

Nobody

Nobody loves me,
Nobody cares,
Nobody picks me peaches and pears.
Nobody offers me candy and Cokes,
Nobody listens and laughs at my jokes.
Nobody helps when I get into a fight,
Nobody does all my homework a night.
Nobody misses me,
Nobody cares.
Nobody thinks I'm a wonderful guy.
So if you ask me who's my best friend, in a whiz,
I'll stand up and tell you that Nobody is.
But yesterday night, I got quite a scare,
I woke up and Nobody just wasn't there,
I called out and reached out for Nobody's hand,
In the darkness where Nobody usually stands.
Then I poked through the house, in each cranny and nook,
But I found somebody each place that I looked.
I searched till I'm tired, and now with the dawn,
There's no doubt about it -
Nobody's gone!

i think it's so true. it makes so much sense. if you ask me, i think loneliness is just a state of mind.

hello.

hey yun, thanks for that really lively shoutout! haha. trust you to do things like that. ;)

the weekend was really awesome. but i'm too lazy to type it all out. i seem to be getting really lazy about blogging. so what the hell? i just wanted to say that it was a really awesome weekend and i'm glad to be alive!!

dear god, thank you! =)

ok bye bye.

pretty neat end to a pretty neat week with pretty neat friends and pretty neat treats.

breaking the rules here and there once in a while brings with it a sense of liberation. only problem is, i've got shifty eyes. shifty, shifty eyes that read suspicion all over. and now these shifty, oh-so-shifty eyes are tired and sleepy and are shifting into the realm of the sandman. delusional and weird i am becoming. good night.