i say the word "whatever" because i don't want to and so that i don't have to...care. do you? it's a terrible word, a terrible attitude, a terrible way of life.

if everyone said "whatever", what ever shall we become of us?

lord of the rings, harry potter, the da vinci code....bah! i say. say hello to M.D.! i say. merrill john dookie d. the visionary of the 21st century and beyond!

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so why were u in dog heaven
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do u really want to know
-->shireen<-- says:
yes please
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ok here goes :
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I dreamt a dream , but it was nothing like i'd ever dreamed before . There were poodles , lassie and St bernard at the door . So I went up to him and said , what am i doing here and St bernard replied ' there are somethings you need to find out for yourself ' . So i patted him on the head and i walked on straight in , and there i saw . Every dog , and i'm telling you every dog
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was eating an ice-cream with its little paws . Yes believe you me , and so I walked around for a little bit , and there I saw a dog in the corner , biting away his toe . Out of curiosity , more than of kindness I went forward to look at him . I bent forward and asked him what his name was and what he was doing . He told me his name was Beno NAthani . I said to myself , doesn't that ring a familiar
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bell , so I checked again . Beno was all there looking alone and lost and licking his dog toe . I sat against the wall , and decided to find out more about Beno and why he wasn't having an ice cream .
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Beno told me that all the other dogs discriminated him because he was fat . I wanted to check him and say , are u sure man - you're more like obese . But then i realised it was insensitive , perhaps obesity runs in the family . Beno said that all Beno could eat was a packet of Ginger and Garlic M&M's . I felt angry, i felt enraged - I turned purple . It's possible to turn purple in dog heaven
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Then i asked the JApanese Chim who was passed out direction . ' Ohio gonzaimas , hold it there u slinky-eyed mutt !!!! What is the meaning of this ??? Why can't poor Beno have an ice-cream like every other dog '
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Then the Japanese Chim , bowed in his little doggies way and replied ' Sensei , ohio Toyota Cars Make very good these days ' . I was goddammed pissed and i had a right to be . ' What the hell are you talking bout doggie . You better talk some sense before I tell fat man and little boy '.
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he replied ' I tell u brown man whose face is purple in colour , Beno here can't eat ice cream because he's too fat . Too fat , i tell you , We wan't not him to pai pai '
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'Pai pai , i asked ' . Yes Pai pai , from what i learnt later from a Kerry Blue Terrier , who was a practioning medical nurse who in his previous life was the 'jaga' at the dog clinic in sembawang road , and i guess that qualifies him that much - he said that pai pai is to reach an unconscious state from having too much ice-cream . I was shocked , but it came to my sense . These dogs had good
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intentions they cared about Beno . They didn't want Beno to suffer again . After all , what would happen to Beno if he had ' pai-pai-ed' . I left the Jap mutt , and I turned to Beno . I asked him as I realised my time was up . Was there anything , I could do to help him feel better ? He told me ' Reach out to my brother Reno Mathani . When he comes to dog heaven , I want him to have all the
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ice-cream in the world . All the multi-flavoured , double-scoop , tripple scoop and make me proud . I knew finally , my purpose of being in Dog heaven . I knew what I was supposed to do .
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That's it , so now u know . And i'm sure you know what to do :)

wow. that. was. so. awe-some!

paradigmatic investigation...dyadic social interaction...go shireen go! 12 papers to be read and analysed before you sleep tonight, filled with such fancy, mind-stopping (literally) lingo such as yours truly's introduction to this post. i love what i'm studying, i really do! i just need more time!!! and eyes!!! and brains!!! and shireens!!!

hmmm, the simpsons will be on in 5 minutes followed by malcolm in the middle. hmmmm indeed...

i want to remember this:

sunday afternoons, lying down on the car seat. the car window seemed much bigger then. turning my gaze skywards, watching the tops of trees and white wispy/fluffy clouds whiz by against the blue sky. sun shines brightly and it's probably hot out there but we're safe and cool in the car, on the way back from lunch, and i'm wishing the ride never ends. and all the while, papa's put on new order's "regret" and i'm wishing the song never ends too though i'm too young to really know or care what it's about. we're all in a good mood.

new order's "regret" always reminds me of those fresh and dreamy sunday afternoons. perhaps that's why i decided to make it my new ringtone, besides the fact that it sounds really good! only problem is, i take longer to answer the phone now.

woohoo! added links on the sidebar! -->

and i did it ALL BY MYSELF!

so if i start to get boring, which is impossible, there are some alternatives which i have kindly provided. and some which i am still in the process of getting licenses for. haha.

but seriously, click on them. someone might have something to tell you which you need to read today.

next step: radioblog! or something like that...

it's a drizzly sunday morning. papa just finished bathing reno, and in my sleepy daze, at papa's request, i took videos of him cleaning reno's ears, brushing reno's teeth and combing reno's hair. as usual, reno tries to eat anything that comes into contact with his mouth (don't worry, he doesn't bite) so, as you can guess, he was trying to lick all the toothpaste up. it was a pretty funny sight, but reno is always doing these weird idiosyncratic things that only a reno does.

sometimes do you wake up really tired after dreaming? i feel awake but somewhat tired from the adventures my dreams took me on before i woke up this morning. they were so vivid, so strange, so crazy, so perplexing and so....real.

now i'm plonked down at the dining table which has become my new haven for studying, if one can even have a haven for studying. there's nothing much else to do but study really. i could go for a run, i could watch tv, i could read the papers...and i could think of you. i think i'll just study.

i have so many dreams, all these big plans swimming in my mind. sometimes, i feel excited when i study the things i study and i think about what all these things could do for life, for the world, and that i have access to this knowledge. and my gosh, all the things i could do! me, small little me, i could make a difference somewhere and for a while, i am smiling inside, excited as hell, devouring the pages. but the moment i look away, i get distracted and tired. just like when my stomach feels queasy and i start to eat and it doesn't feel so queasy when i eat but the moment i stop, it's queasy as hell. i don't know if that's an appropriate analogy but it's more or less the same feeling.

roxette's "listen to your heart" is playing right now and somehow, everytime i listen to this song, i feel a whole lot of feelings. they used to play this alot in morey's piers and it seemed to match my thoughts at the time too (so drama!). and everytime this song came on, it would be pretty surreal. people would still be screaming, doing silly things outside your booth, deciding what to buy. sometimes, some of the associates would walk by and smile, clean your window, whatever. and all this while you're sitting there behind that glass window, in your own world, watching the world outside go by, but with everything and everyone seeming to take on a different hue. i think this song will never be the same for melt and me. =)


view of mariner's landing from the back of adventure pier at night

And there are voices that want to be heard
So much to mention but you can't find the words
The scent of magic, the beauty that's been
When love was wilder than the wind

p.s. happy children's day!