life seems so diiferent through my eyes as the days pass me by this week. i don't know. i feel less scared of being alone now, maybe. i don't really bother being too fussy about who i'm with anymore. it just hasn't mattered too much to me this week. i feel more free. i feel different. light. (could still lose a coupla pounds or more.) sailing through life like a feather in the wind. something's definitely brewing in me. something wonderful.

there are days when i walk alone. when i have to take the train home alone. when i have to spend a free period or two in school alone. or whatever. it doesn't bother me so much anymore. the result of faith? perhaps.

i found myself in borders today browsing through the poetry of shel silverstein. a childlike voice at the heart of each poem. so simple yet so profound. and at times, just plain silly. so there i was, sitting on a bench there, scribbling down profusely poem after poem which i enjoyed in my notebook. here's one i rather liked. i liked alot actually. but well, this is kind of related to today's blog topic. it's called NOBODY.

Nobody

Nobody loves me,
Nobody cares,
Nobody picks me peaches and pears.
Nobody offers me candy and Cokes,
Nobody listens and laughs at my jokes.
Nobody helps when I get into a fight,
Nobody does all my homework a night.
Nobody misses me,
Nobody cares.
Nobody thinks I'm a wonderful guy.
So if you ask me who's my best friend, in a whiz,
I'll stand up and tell you that Nobody is.
But yesterday night, I got quite a scare,
I woke up and Nobody just wasn't there,
I called out and reached out for Nobody's hand,
In the darkness where Nobody usually stands.
Then I poked through the house, in each cranny and nook,
But I found somebody each place that I looked.
I searched till I'm tired, and now with the dawn,
There's no doubt about it -
Nobody's gone!

i think it's so true. it makes so much sense. if you ask me, i think loneliness is just a state of mind.