i dream

almost every single time (when there's still daylight) i step out of the small laundry room, i just stand still for a few moments and let my eyes feast on the calming/overwhelming sight of the rolling hills in the distance. i watch how sunlight bathes the grass and i picture myself just sitting there one day, doesn't matter when, just sitting on one of those slopes in the sunlight where everything below will look so so small and nothing matters but that moment i'm in and the grass dancing in the wind, with some playfully poking my bare feet, and the clouds floating overhead and the quietness of it all. sometimes, i wish i could just roll on those hills, rolling here rolling there, rolling like those slopes would never end. and when i'm tired, i'd just stop wherever i am, lie on my back and watch the sky. the sun wouldn't be piercing but hot enough for me to be comfortably warm with a gentle breeze tickling my face. sometimes, the sky would be pink because of sunset and that's when i will smile even wider, because sunsets and evenings are my favourite times of day. before i turn around to walk back to my flat, i'd tell myself, "this is actually your home for now. aren't you lucky?" and i'd walk back dreamily and contented.

why don't i just turn into a sheep right?

i remember a holiday in melbourne. we were in some park. papa and mama waited for us kids somewhere. us kids, we were running up slopes on this mini hill just so we could run down them again and oh it gave us such a kick.

sometimes, the days/nights get a little mundane, i look up at the sky with all its stars and i know life is never ordinary. sometimes, the day/nights get so so noisy and congested, i look up at the sky with all its stars and imagine myself on the moon where it must be oh so quiet and i secretly float away into those thoughts.

this is how i never get bored much. this is why i'm hardly cynical. this is why there's always something that can inspire. i just remember (and i remember alot!), i just dream, i just imagine the possibilities because hey...it just might be possible and there's so much we don't know! don't ever stop dreaming and hold on to the memories of those moments when your heart was more alive than ever. at least, that's what i do.