ha ha

perhaps, in all that haste to turn everything into laughter, i'll find one that's really genuine. you know? the heartfelt kind that makes you feel like you're being continuously punched in the guts and turns on the waterworks? funny how the best kinds leave you in such pain, wanting more of the same. funny how a good laugh uncannily resembles a good cry. funny.

what's that? you're not going to be there again? i raise my eyebrows, shrug my shoulders, sing a tune, smile and walk on. it works. you love me better this way. i love me better this way.