i'm floatin' like a butterfly....

save for a little indigestion from stuffing myself silly at hard rock with sheryl tay just now.

fine end to an unpredictable school week. i was in a pretty elated mood today. seriously, there's something strange going on in me. i've never been one to cry so openly. save the time i was a baby. and all of a sudden, out of the blue, a torrent of tears was unleashed. and i'd cry at the weirdest times. when i wasn't supposed to. i tried to suppress it all, cos being the optimist that i am(what irony), i always believe that it will all go away and blow over anyway. but that was the mistake. suppression just makes it all worse. it makes the feelings stronger. it's got to be dealt with and brought to the surface. or else, you'd drown in your own tears.

and what's worse, i was going on that way for weeks. not good. i wasn't the only one emotionally drained. the people around me were, too. and they didn't deserve it. at all. and i'm truly sorry, you all. truly sorry.

but at least most of the storm's died out, i hope. got all i need to out of the system at the moment. pissed the crap away. in fact, yes, strange's the word. how i was "the story of the girl who cried the river and drowned the whole world" at one moment and the next, laughing and smiling like a crazy idiot. how laughter keeps us sane.

things won't always or ever be perfect. things won't always or ever be how i want them to be. but if i can't change the direction of the wind, i can always adjust my sails. (on a bookmark i bought)

(and thanks eaten!!)