i finally stepped into the esplanade concert hall today. more importantly, i finally saw the pipe organ. went there for a pipe organ recital cos it was free admission. an acjc girl was one of the 3 playing by the way. i was awestruck! it was such a sacred sight. all those beautiful pipes with music echoing from them and around the hall. brought to life by the fingers and the feet of the organist. the organists played facing the pipes, with their backs to the audience. it strongly reminded me of the way mass was said in the past, the priests facing the altar with their backs to the congregation. likewise, with no intention of blaspheming here, the organist offered up the musical notes to the pipes, the grand altar infront, his(her) back facing the audience. this rather added on to the sacred effect. however, if i come tothink about it now, the whole thing seemed rather peculiar and amusing.

i fell asleep at many a times though. the organ pieces were lulling me into a deep slumber; what with it being a sunday afternoon and a readily available comfortable chair and lack of sleep from the nightS before.

whatever it is, i have yet another dream. i dream of playing on that oragan one day. it's gorgeous. and i don't care whether it's to give a performance or just to fool around by some pretty good luck. i just know that i long to run my fingers on the keys and trot on the pedals and admire the magnificent sounds produced from a few gentle touches.

speaking about dreams, i dreamt about eels the other day. in this dream, i was on my way home to get dressed for someone's wedding. not sure whether it was mine or not. next thing i know, i was in some really snenic place. felt like china or mongolia though there was really no way to tell. i just knew. next thing i know, i was at the edge of some lake or pond or something and staring into it, with my feet in the water. i saw something but couldn't make out what it was. as it started becoming more defined, i realised it was an eel but i didn't bother to move away. but when it touched me, i panicked and tried to move away but it started coiling itself around my legs and worked its way up, coiling around the rest of my body. then, i saw another eel emerging from the water and slithering over to me. it seemed like these two eels had a certain bond with each other and could never part. what one did, the other would do.

then somehow, someone came along and told me to shake alot as shaking would scare the eel away. i was scared to at first. but decided to follow his advice. i started shaking and shaking as though i was possessed. the eel uncolied itself and quickly slithered away back into the water. the other eel followed suit naturally. the two eels would never dream of parting.

well i can't remember what happened after that. does this mean anything? well, i thought of something. i used to watch alot of the little mermaid when i was young and there were 2 eels in it. then quite recently, i was reading harry potter and something coiled around someone and lets see. my cousin's getting married next year. and earlier in the day, i did watch a movie with scenic backgrounds except that i don't remember seeing any gigantic lakes like i saw in my dream. so maybe, everything became rojak in my mind? past movies, current events, familiar stories and past dreams all rolled into one?

oh and that movie with the scenic background...it's called mr. and mrs. iyer. it's set in india but the script is mostly english. really interesting. it touched on the issues of caste system and religious animosity in india which makes india as segregated as it is. it touched on other things as well. fear, love, sacrifice, priorities,basic human kindness. at the beginning of the movie, there was a verse that was quoted and it really struck me. i can't quote it word for word for memory fails me. but it's something like this:

"where shall i wield my knife?
from what shall i take it out of
or plunge it into?
for you are the whole world my lord"

makes sense to me.