i've never been so uptight about ANY exam in my life before. i've never drawn up a study plan for ANY exam in my life before. i've never started studying for ANY exam one month or more before it. for ANY exam until the one coming up ahead...PRELIMS.

maybe i didn't do all that before cos i was scared that if i studied too hard and still did badly, i'd be SORELY disappointed. but. i can't take chances now. i have to give it my all. i don't know where i'm gonna be at this time next year if i'm still breathing but i want to be somewhere. so i have to give it all i've got.

i don't want to give myself an excuse for screwing up, especially if i can help it. i know i hate choosing, but i hate feeling trapped even more. so i have to work hard so that i'll have more opportunities and choices at this time next year. so that i won't be stifled. so that i'll be able to get up and go. somewhere.

i'd fly above the trees
over the seas
in all degrees...

...to any where i please....