sometimes, in order to let go of the big things, we have to let go of the really small things. and i mean really, really small things. who would've thought something so small could cause your heart to stop for a few seconds? and it's painful to watch as the old life you once craved and perhaps still hold on to fades away bit by bit. and you feel really helpless and sad knowing all you can do is watch because holding on won't do you any good. the only good part about all this is hope. in the fact that all this is for some greater good and that if we trust and obey the flow, this river will lead us to something much more beautiful and lovely.

it feels like a punch in my stomach but i got through the toughest part so i'll get through this too....