dear god,

thank you for the Dark Night. without it, i cannot know faith. and whilst i cry out for a hand to hold on to and keep me from drowning in despair, i know that i can never fully know faith like this if i am not alone. many times, i cry out to you, asking you when this will end. i lash out against the people who i love and who love me, asking why they were not there. but today, i have woken up to a new day and you allowed my eyes to pour over the words of a simple book you led me to and i am affirmed, encouraged, to not give up, to not lose hope, and to embrace my Dark Nights. to not know what should happen next and yet move forward with courage. to love without fear. i surrender this day to you. be with me in my choices.

love,
reenie