i don't know. it's been a weird day.

how i woke up in a rage. how i put on my running shoes and ran and ran. how the angry thoughts rushed through my head till they became a blur. how the skin on my toes hardened from my stubbornness to stop. how the glaring, garing sun turned my brows into a frown. how as i reached the last few stages of my little journey the lyrics of U2's "walk on" and Our Lady Peace's "clumsy" mysteriously came alive in my head. how i bummed around in nothingness all day. how i talked things out with my dad. how it all changed in that one conversation. how my heart felt like it was on the same roller-coaster in alanis morissette's "mary jane", which also happened to play in my mind during the long walk home. how it's still being taken on a ride at this very moment.

how unsure i am of what tomorrow brings. how can i expect anything anymore? how much more unpredictable can it all get?

'life has a funny way of sneaking up on you when you think everything's ok and everything's going right.."

but alanis also said that..

"life has a funny way of helping you out when you think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face..."