i tried to shut them up. the stupid chicken voices in my head. but i can't turn away from and deny the reality that is unfolding infront of me. nor can i run away from it. and changing it makes no difference. it just leads to another kind of reality, running along the same lines. i can tell the whole world how i feel and what i'm afraid of but i can't seem to tell it to the people who play the biggest parts in it. i just couldn't wait to get home from school today. am i running too much? am i tiring myself out for nothing?

maybe.