met up with some of my old pals today. and u know, i've always been apprehensive about meeting up with old pals. what if there's nothing to talk about anymore? what if nothing's the same between us anymore? what if? what if? what if?

but, now i say, bullocks to all that worrying and what ifs man. i had a fine time today. just chilling with my old pals again. doing crazy stuff. making fools out of ourselves. laughing like morons.and talking plain crap. ah, it's like nothing's change. putting on our bimbo acts. harmlessly insulting each other. laughing at ourselves and with each other. i'm glad time hasn't turned our friendship mouldy. it still feels as fresh as the morning sunshine. but i'm not a morning person. so it feels more like the sunsets, surreal and beautiful, the kind that leaves a warm feeling in your heart after a real lovely day or even a shitty one...

i was just telling yun today that changes can be really difficult to handle but i couldn't possibly live without them. how mundane life would be. and there'd be no kick. as much as i left my softball dreams and close friends behind in rj, i'm glad i entered into a new school. i'm glad for all the changes thrown into my life. i'm glad for all my successes. i'm glad for all my failures. they all brought me to where i am today. i may have been down and out for a while, failure after failure, but a greater good always seems to come out of it. so when any shit gets thrown into my face nowadays, i always hang in there, believing in the greater good that'll come outta it. hey, it's just shit anyway. all we gottta do is flush it all away...

chin fung and yun both agreed i looked green this morning. they said my face looked green. HUH? i think it's cos i'm not getting enough sleep. not good. so good night! =P