i think i run away so much because i'm so afraid to face my demons. i never believed that running away was a solution. but now, i keep heading that way more and more. i know i can run away from everything but i can't run away from myself. so there's really no point in running....

why are we so far away from the deepest part of ourselves? why does it have to be so complicated? well, i guess there would be no kick otherwise..i just want to know what not being stressed is like.

i want to be 18 forever. i don't want to pay the adult fare and tap my card twice on the bus. i don't want to be stuck in a job i'll hate. i don't want to make all those super big decisions with greater consequences. i don't want to say so many goodbyes to the ones i hold so dear. i don't want to grow up so fast. but i guess it's inevitable.

wish me luck and say a prayer for me...tonight, i may have to finally face those demons and fight them.

sidetrack : Angels of the Silences by Counting Crows