it seems like you never even existed. yet, i have these visions once in a while. memories. moments of laughter and foolishness. the way you made me laugh. then, the way you made me cry. the way you you showed you cared. then, the way you didn't even bother. how we got through it all together. then, how we hurt and judged each other. and then, you were gone. i know you really aren't. i know alot of it was just in my mind. but, was it really just my imagination? or was i right all this while, and that you just never realised?

well, life still seems to go on, with or without you. it seems easier now that you're not here. but, being human, there's just this tendency to desire that which turns our worlds upside-down and messes our insides. and we think we'll be happy. we think that those few moments of nirvana will be worth all the pain. i really don't know.

not that i'm even missing you. or longing for you. i was just thinking about you.

but you never really knew anyway.

hear ye, hear ye : Turn My Head by Live