another week has started. i was having my supposed one-week holiday last week. it was actually more of a psuedo holiday littered with an exam, project work and meetings. but i guess most of us were not bothered to be so upset about this because we were already resigned to the fact that all elaborate plans of fun would have to be thrown out of the window to make way for the impending deadlines. dead. lines. lines of death.

throughout that pretty mellow one week though, things weren't as bad as they seemed. i was using it as an opportunity to put first things first in my life. it's like this. whenever you set priorities straight and put what is most important at the centre of everything, then everything else starts to flow naturally. more like, you have the grace to accept and embrace things more naturally. i kinda found a certain peace i needed.

but it's so easy to backslide. a new week has started and already, i am starting to do things upside-down again. two step forwards, one step back. that should mean i'm still going forward, right? but if it's one step forward, two steps back......

an embodied soul. incarnation. sacrament. faith. mystery. living. child. walking on water. blind. absorbing all the bullets of the world. consideration. sufficient? go. hell. total abandonment. love. human. divine. no. yes. unburnt. waves. resilient. grace. suffering. consumerism. what more is there. resurrect. outside the realm of time. inside. nothing. all.

this is a lovely song by u2 off their passengers soundtrack. Your Blue Room. shan't say much about it. go take a listen or ask me if you can't find it...

Your Blue Room by U2
The air is clean, your skin is clear
We've had enough fun hanging around here
It's a different kind of conversation in your blue room

Saw me calmly, deep inside
Saw me calmly, somewhere to hide

And time is a string of pearls
Your blue room
In a second see the future just hanging there
Your blue room
A new frame, a new perspective
Looking down on my objectives
New instructions, whatever their directions
Your blue room

Saw me calmly, be so proud and new
Saw me calmly, came to feel

It's alright
Your blue room
One day, I'll be back
Your blue room
Yeah, I hope I remember where it's at
Your blue room

I see inside of you
Won't you take me back home
So much for the time

Zooming in and zooming out
Nothing I can do without
A lense to see it all up close
Magnify what everyone knows
Never in company, never alone
No car alarms, no cellular phones