cryptic (not so), sarcastic sms attacks,
angry voices booming through walls,
slamming of doors and crashing things,
they get me down, but only for a while,
i got plenty of reasons to smile.

it's so stupid how all of this started. please excuse me because i can't think of any less intelligent word besides "stupid". really, get over it. you don't even have tourettes, you weren't born with mermaid feet, you don't have cancer, you weren't made homeless by a hurricane, your dad didn't abandon you when you were a kid, you aren't poor. in fact, all that happened were...tantrums that were blown out of proportions.

let me tell you what's happening. noone knows how to talk to each other. the same things can be said without the vulgarities, with less accusations and name-calling, with non-dramatic words and with softer voices. and we wonder why noone listens or understands.

lets get this straight. firstly, even if you were all those things above that i said you weren't, you still have NO excuse to treat people like shit, just like there is no excuse for anyone to treat you like shit. i repeat, there is no excuse for that. secondly, stop waiting for other people to apologise or to make up for their "sins" before you do. otherwise, what's so much more sincere about your apology? and what makes you so right in the first place? thirdly, how the hell is your pride more important than this?

i'm not going to reciprocate. if you find me annoyingly nice or unmoved by the tantrums, it's because i am. simple as that. sometimes, words just don't provide the solution.

we're leaving for india tomorrow and i am going to enjoy every moment of it. i am really thankful for this opportunity. and i know i am blessed. i don't think you are a money-making machine or a doormat, you are my wonderful father. i don't think you are a naggy old hag, you are my beautiful mom. i don't think you are problem kids, you are my beloved brothers. and i love each and every one of you. i'm shireen but i'm not sweet by nature as my name professes me to be. but here i have been, baring my heart for you, because you're one of the rare few things that really matter..to me.