oh man. sometimes i make really stupid decisions. and i really don't think. i skipped physics tutorial today and i didn't even bother doing anything to cover it up. and now low's damn pissed or so i heard. i always thought she didn't really notice the girls in class. i thought she only gives her attention to the guys. i was wrong. damn damn damn. somehow perrin's statement has kept playing in my mind since the day he said it. " i believe that life comes around in one full circle. you'll never always get away with things. they'll come back one day." or something like that. i hope it doesn't turn out so bad. i'm sorry. *crosses fingers and toes*

i feel i kind of wasted today. and i came home pissed though i started the day really happy. i wish it didn't have to be so. i wish i knew how to make better decisions. i wish i didn't have to be so naive and soft. i thought i'd gotten over being naive and soft. guess not. gotta make up for all the lost time now. really don't know why i did the things i did, but sitting around and moping and groaning about it will just give me more things to mope and groan about later. so i gotta just try to SNAP OUT of this shitty mode and get back to living.

wonder what's cooking, or getting cold....