spent the whole day at sheryl's. lately, i've been spending more time at other people's houses than my own...eating their food, watching their tv, using their tables to study, taking naps on their beds, bla bla. like i don't have a house or something. haha. big thanks to these people. but nothing beats coming home. sleeping on your own bed, eating your own home food, finding your fave food and drinks in the fridge, sitting as unpleasantly as you want on your own sofa with your legs everywhere, messing your room and the dining table as much as you want to with your notes, playing the type of music you like as loud as you want, watching all the tv shows You want to watch......just goes on and on and on..this list.

anyway at sheryl's, in between studying, we decided to treat ourselves to the korean movie, "the way home". (we spent quite a while fixing up the vcd player which turned into a tay family affair) this movie was really very heartwarming. slow-moving, somewhat, but heartwarming. initially i wanted to blog about it. but i'm getting sleepy now. and so the moment to blog it has passed. so too bad, folks. check it out if you'd like.

you know. studying isn't really that bad. alot of things we're learning now, many might say they're useless. just wasting our time and brain RAM. but i choose to think otherwise. all this physics, all this chemistry...if i can actually try to tahan it, i actually find that all i'm stuffing into my brain is actually causing me to appreciate the world even more. it's just so amazing how everything in this world has been worked out to the most minute detail. that nothing's not important enough. that it's all been taken care of. the smallest things. and if on this planet alone, there's so much to be learnt and so much left to be learnt, what more the rest of the universe! just makes me marvel at the mind of God even more. like..god is sooo smart..?!

know how science and spirituality have always clashed. i choose to believe that they tie in together. that by trying to uncover the secrets and the workings of this universe, we are in a way, doing the same to ourselves, taking a peek into the mind of god and reminding ourselves that there are some things bigger than the little worlds we choose to live in; the little bubbles of delusional joy or misery or hate we choose to wrap ourselves in.

which is why i want to travel. i want to see every damn thing there is to be seen. i want to experience everything. i want to go to the poorest town in the world and the wealthiest ones as well. i want to know what it's like to live in a war-torn country. i want to fall from a a great height without taking my life(guess i could bungee-jump or go free falling). i want to be an austronaut and fly into space and be surrounded by stars. i want to go under the sea and see the brilliant colours of the luminous corals and the fish with their funny expressions. i want to know what it's like to be part of a tribe. i want to know what it's like to be..say, my mom or my brother or my dog or a jock or a rockstar or the outcast(i'm sure many of us have experienced this before) or the one who's forgotten(and this too) or maybe even you who are reading this. i want to be there when a volcano erupts. or when the earth quakes. (but the destruction i do not desire)

i guess our books just bring us a step closer to all these experiences. but nothing beats being there yourself.

so as i was saying, about studying. sometimes i wonder what i'm studying so hard for.(am i studying hard??) i guess, it's for the grades, yes. for the exams. but i guess i do feel smarter now. haha. the way your body feels when you've had a good workout. that's my brain after a good day of studying. accomplished. and growing. don't get me wrong. i'm not addicted to studying, no. far from. lack the focus and attention span. but if you ever feel like giving up on studying, maybe what i have just said might help make studying a more meaningful affair. at least, that's what it's done for me...

just my two-cents worth for the coming exams. haha. don't worry, pple. remember. "Worry gives a small thing a big shadow". read that once in the mrt on my way home. ok, 'nuff said.