aaaaah....this is awesome. haha.

well, see, my com crashed recently. thanks to a beloved sibling. but hey, i'm bumming on my bed now, enjoying the laptop experience. first time ever, in the comfort of my own room, on my own bed....haha feels great. i'm lovin' it! maybe they should use me for one of those macs adverts they line the trays with haha. swaku, what to do?

"i am sam" is brilliant. never fail to cry everytime i watch it. (it's quite embarrassing when you're watching a movie alone on tv and ur younger brother walks in and finds you sniffling. it is!) i love everything about it. the story, the characters, the script, the music, the colours, the cinematography...aaah, such a beautiful story. won't be too long before i watch it again.

wide awake now cos i spent a major part of saturday sleeping, what with a blasting headache which refused to go away for a rather long time. well, it's gone now. but i fear. if i don't sleep soon, i'll spend a major part of today like yesterday...really, i should try to study when i have some free time. haha. =p

2 more papers!!! then total freedom! well, not totally. but aaaah, i can't wait. on friday, i was supposed to be studying in the morning for the afternoon physics papers but daydreams took over. what i'd be doing after the As....well, i daydreamed so much i was almost panicking while walking into the exam hall cos i hadn't finished studying all that i was supposed to. but it wasn't so bad in the end haha.

sometimes i wish i could switch off my mind. thinking and thinking and thinking. getting nowhere but down, down, down. stop thinking, mind!!!

sometimes, i look back at the things i've done, what i've achieved, songs i've composed or stories i've written. then i think to myself, how did i ever manage to do all those things? i tell myself i can't possibly do the same now. but that's what i told myself then. so sometimes, maybe it really is divine intervention. god planting his seeds in us. and we never really see the full glory and beauty of it until it's really over. but many a times, we choose to give up halfway, cos we lose sight so easily. it's such a waste. it's so sad. hopefully, i'll be able to see the big picture one day, after all this is over, and be able to smile and be thankful that i was granted the strength and grace not to give up, no matter how many times i've been tempted to.

i seem to have alot of things to say now. but it's all probably just gonna turn out like mindless ramblings i.e. the above.
thanks ruoxi and my annonymous friend for the shoutouts. have a lovely week ahead, you!