isn't the sight of an abandoned blog such a sad one?

words are racing through my mind, sporadically. but none seem to stop for breath. so i'm just leaving sympathy words here for a decomposing blog, almost forgotten and covered in dust as life passes it by.

have you ever tried to cry just so that you'd know there was still something alive in you? just so you'd know that some things still touch your heart in the deepest crevices? to bleed just to know you're alive?

it's funny. things SEEM to tug at my heart's strings easily these days. but the tears just crystallise before they can ever come out. and i wonder whether i've grown cold. whether in psycho-ing myself into thinking i've become stronger, i've only just become frozen. it's scary. i don't want to be that way. it seems that if we can't feel anymore, we've more or less died. that's when everything seems empty. that's when the maggots in our minds devour us.

is it the exams that taint my vision with a tint of blue? why does everything....seem so sad? why does my heart....feel so bad?