ah freeeedom.....how sweeeeet the sound.

u know, it's so easy to create for ourselves a false sense of liberation. haha. like the man who chose not to drink in days, when the first drop of water brushed against his parched throat, how heavenly it felt. now we chose to sit for these As. yes, we did have a choice. (and consequences, haha.) weeks of condemnation to the books and the ten-year-series. no wonder i couldn't stop grinning and laughing like a crazy idiot the moment our freedom was declared!!

but alas, there are new things to worry about. things which i have lazily chose to postpone. sloth is a deadly sin.

i'm talking about the future. ok, i don't know which uni i want to go to. much less, which course i'm heading for. also, what job should i apply for? should i throw away all my notes? (don't throw away! or burn your notes and books! recycle, people!!) what if i wanna rip poor parents off their hard-earned cash and tutor their children? aaah, such difficult decisions i have to make. YAR RIGHT! but, it is difficult. it's not the first time i'm rambling on about this. it's just this stupid "grass-is-greener-on-the-other-side syndrome." it's probably just the fear of possibly having to face regret.

i really admire all those people who've had a childhood ambition since they were 2, and who lived their lives towards that dream and actually achieved it. maybe, i'm even a little envious too. but good on you people. what's my direction in life? what's my desire? what's my dream?

ok, let's talk about the immediate future. i'm leaving for japan tomorrow and i haven't packed yet!!! it's too stressful! haha.

i just, you know, don't wanna do anything. yuck. i'm disgusting.