it seems that the more happening life gets, the less i blog. and now as i'm blogging, i feel an obligation to. a whole episode has just passed me by. in the recent weeks.

i was happy. then i was sad. like a bubble a child blew just so he could marvel at it, but then decided to poke it before it rose too high and he couldn't reach it anymore. why can't we just let those bubbles be? but they burst anyway. because nothing is permament. it will all pass us by. knowing this and accepting it, i am able to let it all go and be happy again.

i learnt many things.

about the inconstant, rash, unpredictable and sometimes foolish human heart. as much as we can't help but fall in love with the beauty we see in others, we must always remember that. people fall. people change. people change their minds. people change their hearts. we can never fully depend on anyone. when we love, we are taking a giant leap of trust. of courage. yes, the heart is such a delicate, fragile thing. simple and yet, so complex, all at once. and understanding this, i have been able to find in my own heart, a place for forgiveness. and the strength to let go.

that there is no hurry. there is no rush. there is no room for worry. for there is a time for everything. and what we have, we should treasure and nurture. to throw it all away in one rash act, governed by desire...was it really worth it? it might have been. and it might have not. and knowing this too, i have been able to let go.

that when things are right infront of you at a particular moment, they may SEEM like the biggest things in your life. but do not be disillusioned. an illusion can be the mastermind of a really cruel game. and often is. knowing this, we must never lose sight of the things that matter most. even when we can't see it so well. or not even at all. it takes faith. and faith is more reliable than our own eyes.

that everything DOES happen for a reason. at the time it should happen. that there is a reason for all that heartbreak and distress. we should appreciate those painful moments. rising out of it, we become stronger than ever. and go through life more gracefully. sink in self-misery, self-pity, self-hate and self-everything, we fall deeper and deeper into our own black-holes. and what happens when you fall into a black hole?

i learnt that my heartbreak and distress could help me put a smile on someone else's face and make one believe that it's possible for things to actually get better. i learnt that someone else's heartbreak and distress could do the same for me. we aren't here just for ourselves.

that we can find solace in the most unexpected places. that things can turn out totally different from anything we'd ever expect. and the cool part is, they usually turn out better than we'd ever expect them to. if only we'd just try to see that and not be tied down by what WE want.

yes, i have learnt all this and much more. God works in the most mysterious ways, strange and wonderful, all at once. i'm truly amazed. and it's just awesome to be able to see magic in all things. yes, God's continuously working his miracles in all things. if only we could see.

and i learnt that at this moment, i have found myself to be hopelessly addicted to "hey ya" by outkast. anti-climax. haha. i'm sleepy!!

a long day looms ahead. and i should be in a foul mood if i've been robbed of precious minutes of sleep. later!