i'm lying in bed again for the 2nd friday night in a row. haha. but it's not like i can go anywhere anyway. my left knee's busted and my back is really in pain. took part in smu travel club's "Amazing Race" today and i think i almost died haha. we ran from beginning to end. and when we reached the first station, i think i was about to drop to the floor and faint already haha. but it was all good cos we were leading in the beginning. unfortunately..we went to the wrong place for the second station, allowing the another team to catch up. and then, my knee started giving way. and after a while, i couldn't even walk..don't talk about running. and then, when we were on our way to the last station, both my calfs started cramping like crazy and it felt like something was biting them. i just couldn't move and felt paralysed. and can u imagine??? jeremy carried me!! he piggy-backed me and i think it probably felt like he really was carrying a few pigs on his back!!! and then, as we proceeded, my calfs cramped so badly then i couldn't stand it and just fell to the ground. and i was sitting dangerously at a roadside, squirming in pain until jeremy told me to get in. and he tried to help me massage and stretch my calfs and it helped. but after running for another stretch, as we were getting nearer, the calfs cramped up soooo badly again that i just crashed to the pavement again, and this time, i didn't hold back on the expletives.=P

poor teammates. they were trying to help me get rid of the cramps. and they were so nice and patient about it. but i knew that they knew how close we were to winning and yet how far we now seemed. and just across the road, we saw another team catching up. and they reached the station only a split second before us and that was the last station. so they got the headstart back to school first. aargh..so close, we were.

but i really want to thank my teammates! vincent (ng is it?), adrian h'ng and jeremy seah! they were really wonderful and patient and i'm really sorry i was lagging so much and was so unfit! haha. ok fine, i really was a liability. there was some truth in your joke yesterday, jeremy seah! but these three guys were always encouraging me and waiting for me and checking to see wheth....

ok...that's where the post ended. what happened was, i typed out a really really long post. included stuff about the day, the race, my busted knee, my back, my journey home, winning some stuff because i happened to be daydreaming in the right place at the right time, and other miscelleneous stuff. BUT most importantly, i had typed out alot of "thank you"s to various people who i felt like thanking today. and not just regarding the race. very random thank yous but very sincere ones. and it all got deleted cos i accidentally clicked something and till now, i don't even know what i clicked! and this is not the first time!!!!!

but anyway, that post contained alot of thank yous to people who i think don't even read or know about this blog. but i wanted to tell the world about them and how special and wonderful and beautiful they were. i guess, maybe i should tell them directly how much i appeciate them and acknowledge who they are and have been. but i guess typing out the post made me reflect and look into my life to see how blessed i am despite all the stinky poo stuff and to remember the goodness these people bring into my life and the world. it would've been nice to have shared it with whoever reads my blog but well, shit happens. and you know shit has to happen sometimes...

alright...the post started off by saying it was friday night but now it's saturday morning. and i'm going to say...good night...