well, well, so i passed driving. it was all so surreal and over so soon. i didn't even make a u-turn. and i didn't stall at all! but i still can't legally drive yet because i hated the instant photo i blew 9bucks on at the centre. so i'm going back later with a shot i got taken professionally last time. c'mon! it's my driving licence! it better look good after all this...

anyway, a big thank you to everyone who prayed for me and supported me. and my parents who paid for my lessons. and of course, aunty helen! i'm sure gonna miss having lessons with her. it was fun and lovely to the very end...

before the test, those who were to take the 245pm test were made to sit in the test reception area and be matched to their testers and test routes by a balloting process. a very nervous lady took a seat next to me while waiting. she turned out to be a housewife who was taking manual lessons so that she could go around more and be able to fetch her children around as well. there was a lady sitting across who seemed to be the life of the room. i think it was her 2nd or 3rd time taking the test. when the ballot results were out, she created quite a racket because she got route 6, which according to what she heard, was the worst route together with route 7. everyone seemed to be really friendly with each other though we hadn't met one another before, perhaps because we were all so nervous and anxious. somehow, i wasn't so nervous in the end. i managed to convince myself that the tester was just a normal human being and it was going to be an honour having him sit beside me as my first official passenger and that i was to treat him well. haha. i was supposed to lead him to the car and i walked almost with a skip even. and before i knew it, the test was over! then they made those who passed watch a video. i made friends with some of those who passed and they were really nice people. one of them was so funny. she was deciding whether to sms her crush to tell him that she passed. i wonder whether she did.

haha i'm having a voice conversation with joyce khoo on msn and i'm calling her all variations of a chicken. this whole thing is sooo weird!

argh. i'm having a headache and my stomach feels bad. i'm having a headache because we were watching videos we took while we were on holiday in italy last year. but what triggered the headache was the terrible video-taking skills ( i won't even call that SKILL) my family possesses!!! zooming in and out, here and there, everywhere, at the speed of lightning! i thought i was going to pass out with giddyness! i mean, 3 minutes on an amusement park ride is alright. but 1 hour plus of that is just insane. and we have more tapes to go. and we insist on watching everyone. so we just sat there commenting and laughing and trying to guess who the bad camera man/woman was and making ourselves sick with the poor filming. my stomach feels bad because i think i ate tooooo much in the last few hours and there are too many things mixed up in my stomach and i just feel like cutting open my stomach and emptying it! aaaaaaaargh!

i was kinda disillusioned today and it left me with a sick feeling in my stomach. besides the sick feeling the food left in my stomach. but alanis morissette once thanked disillusionment and my dad once said that disillusionment is a good thing. i felt a bit angry and cheated at first. but i remembered what someone else once said. people are essentially good. sometimes we just make the wrong choices.

teary eyes and a hearty yawn call out for sleep...