this post is long overdue and yet too pre-mature and definitely far too short and incomplete. nevertheless, i dedicate this to my mom who knows no limit or end when it comes to giving....

when i was younger, i used to be scared of her. she had a stare that could send shivers down your spine (she still does, ask some of our friends =p) and her words could be sharp. but somewhere at some point in time, i stopped being so scared of her and learnt to appreciate her for who she was. in my eyes, she ceased to be the woman who said "no" to everything and spoilt our fun. instead, i saw this brilliant woman who had a very free and adventurous spirit, something that she carried in her since she was a child. she saw me through, breakdown after breakdown, as i poured out to her my tragic tales of love and life, and she amazed me with her depth of wisdom and understanding...and her resilience. whenever we were sick or needed something, she would run (or rather, drive) all over the place for us without hesistation. even if she hesitated, she would think of us first. sometimes, she did so much until she got so tired. that's the thing...what amazes me most about this woman is how she can keep giving and giving!

recently, aunty (my maid) went back to india for 2 weeks to look after her mother who was sick. and my mom decided to look after us and the whole house...and she did it so well! even when i wanted to help, i would find things were done already! well, that's something inherent in her, the need to keep everything in order and be busy haha. and on sunday, i had gone through a pretty rough time and she sat with me and tried to console me even though my actions had caused so much trouble for her. and i noticed that whenever i got back from school this whole week, i would find my room really neat! and every morning, she would pack a nice breakfast for me. and she'd drop me in school, knowing how tired i was, and even when i wasn't. and on monday night, she even called me when i was having dinner after staying back to finish my reports and drove all the way to school to fetch me. she was just giving and giving and giving. and she didn't complain and didn't ask for anything in return, it was as though she just wanted us to be happy! what is that if it is not love? it's really sad that sometimes she gets so much crap from us in return whenever she makes a slight mistake, that is such a crime! shame on us!

and what inspired me to put a post about this right now even though i've so much to study for my BP exam tomorrow (exam on a sunday!) is the phonecall i received from her just now. she went to buy dinner for me and called me to ask whether i wanted sushi after she bought my dinner. and i felt so touched that she wanted to do that for me knowing how much i liked tuna sushi. it was such a simple thing but i'm talking about a woman who does things like this all the time!!

she may be impatient at times, too harsh with her words, say the wrong things sometimes, become depressed at other times....but don't we all? even in spite of all this, her love and resilience shine through and you wonder what you did to deserve it and your heart is bursting with millions and billions and gaijllions of songs of praise and thanks...

thank you, mama....you know i love you!! =)