"dear god, please turn me into a bird, so i can fly, fly far far away from here.."

that day, she didn't turn into a bird. but she was set free. the police mysteriously arrived to take away from her life the man who had caused her so much pain all those years.

and these days, that scene from forrest gump keeps playing repeatedly in my mind. how god works in such mysterious and ingenius ways to turn situations around. how he cushions our fall with love through people. how even the mess left behind by a murderer or rapist can be transformed into something beautiful. how a night of sleeplessness and queasiness and the consequent shirking of responsibility led to a greater purpose to fit into the divine plan of love.

it's like this giant whirlpool we're all being sucked into towards the centre where love is. and no matter what we do or say, we just cannot run away from it. and we hurt so much and struggle so much when we fight against the flow. when we turn away from love. because that is the core of our being. that is our ultimate calling and our ultimate destiny lies somewhere there.

our bouts of suffering are tugs on our sleeves, sometimes yanks, telling us we're fighting the flow and going the wrong way. as we get nearer the centre, just when we think we are finally on the right path, the pain can sometimes get so surprisingly overwhelmingly great. that's because the force there is soooo strong that even straying A LITTLE from the flow brings about immense pain to the soul. but rejoice when we feel this pain. be thankful that we are being reminded and alerted that we are going the wrong direction.

and because this whirlpool is in constant motion, nothing is constant. so many things will pass us by and if we hold on so tightly, we will be going against the flow. and it will tire us down and wear us out.

don't fight the flow....

before we know it, we'll be at the eye, at the centre. we will be in the middle where the source of it all is, where perfect love resides. that's why some say it begins and is right here on earth.

heaven.