yesterday morning, i woke up and i was aching all over due to the mock orientation camp i went for from monday to wednesday. i started wondering about why my holidays were so busy and cluttered and being a slacker by nature, i wasn't too happy about that. then suddenly, i had no idea what hit me but i was feeling really thankful and excited. i started to look back at all the things i had been busy with since the start of holidays...

my thailand trip, the sec3 confirmation camp, the drama, the landmark forum i attended, all the orientation stuff i have attended and will be attending, the thailand trip i will be going for (yes, i'm going again), my driving...and other little things in between...

i was expecting a really slack 3-4months of holidays considering i didn't take on a job but it doesn't seem to be that way. but i realised that every single one of those things mentioned above really helped me to grow and learn so much this holidays. and realising this, i started to look forward to everything else because it feels like i'm going places and i love adventures and going places. i feel alive!

oh yea, and i also realised my two strongest weaknesses are fear and laziness. and these are my strongest weaknesses because i allow them to be my masters and stop me from doing things. i was so tempted to leave so many things halfway. but this holidays, i really wanted to challenge myself and pressed on despite the inertia. and what did i get out of it? i realised all these things were just what they were and nothing more. i could still go on knowing they were there and despite them. not to hide them but accept that they are there and stare them in their eyes as i march on ahead.

and i realised it's about choices. what do you choose to do? how do you choose to do it? what attitude do you choose to have? how do you choose to see it?

there's one thing i need to get down to though....the mountain in my wardrobe....groooooan...