you know, i foresee that business processes is really going to slaughter me over the next few months. i guess he makes up for the slackness of the other professors. he appears to be really muddle-headed but somehow seems to know what he's doing. i really wonder what is going on in his mind. his crazy workload demanding precision and quality coupled with his chaotic deliverance of it summons the dark clouds over my head and frightens me but what i am more intrigued by is this. that to us, he appears confused and unsure about what he is doing and pretty much loads us with so much work because of this but somehow, i think he knows exactly what is happening and sees the order in what we deem chaotic and inconsistent with a professor who is teaching us about systems and efficiency.

today, we had to hand in a case study report but there was so much confusion in groupings and all my groupmates dropped his class at the last minute that i only managed to find a new group yesterday at 4pm after much chaos and mess (you'll see these words throughout this post). we presented the problem to him but he seemed to be more concerned about the fact that we had woken him up from his afternoon nap. we were all rolling of eyes and swearing in different languages because he just wasn't sure himself what to do about this whole grouping confusion and we had only a few hours left to the deadline. i was so desperate i sent a mail out to a whole class of strangers (at that time) begging for some kind soul to reply and take me in. and another groupless girl followed suit and well, things like these were going on till finally i formed a group with 3 new people (the girl inclusive) who turned out to be really wonderful. how we got together was really amazing and well, that's one whole story by itself. let me take a moment to smile about it......=)

we stayed in school till 1038pm, some of us having gone without lunch and dinner, just to finish it and while we were cussing and swearing about the cruel prof who could have helped prevent this whole grouping confusion, i think that we, or at least i, was thankful for having met these people. we went for a nice lunch-cum-tea-cum-dinner-cum-supper together; ah the nasi goreng ikan bilis was shiok! but i can't deny that i'm scared because this is only the first case study and i dread to face the rest of the term if it's going to be like this.

so today, at 830am, we gathered back in class to face that prof and instead of being annoyed with him, i was, as i said before, intrigued (?). there's something strange about him. something bizarre about his chaotic and inconsistent demeanor. at least, that's how it looks like to me. and perhaps, it looks very different from his side. or maybe, he's also very unsure about himself and is trying to put up an act. i don't know. but there are a sea of question marks up here, not just about variability and inventories and flow times and throughput rates and the (stupid!!) case studies but also about this eccentric young professor, who by the way seems to have ripped his whole syllabus from some other institution which i shall not name. well, you see what i mean. i just don't know what to make of him, and yet, somehow, it all seems to connect.

i was sharing this with one of my groupmates and he thinks i'm obsessed and perhaps, scary even. haha. i don't blame him. but nar, i'm not obsessed. however, i do think that this "case study" is way more fun and interesting. and as i was observing him teach in class today, i imagined myself using my fingers to form a rectangle frame and taking an imaginary snapshot of him like he was my new project the way kirsten dunst did in elizabethtown.

perhaps, someone who reads this might be thinking the same thing about me. "who is this strange girl? she's a bit loony. i wonder what on earth must be going through her mind and how did those stuff ever get in there?" haha. feel free to research. i'd also like to know the results of your findings. ;)