"and i'm trying not to feel this music's for real...." 57 by biffy clyro. a gem. cool uneven rhythm. heart-pulling vocals. what the heck, just take a listen yourself.

i know i said i had alot of things to do today. but now i find myself at home. nowadays, i'm a tad too lazy to get up and go out there. maybe i'm just too lazy to pick up the phone and call a few friends out. maybe i'm just too lazy to go through the hassle of dressing up. maybe i'm just too lazy to go out of my way and walk to the bus-stop to take that bus. maybe i'm just too lazy to get off this chair. maybe i'm just too contented bumming, a thing i rarely get to do unless it's the holidays.

"after all these years, forget about the troubled times. and after all these years i was hurting to feel something more than life." after all these years by silverchair. great vocals too. the kind that tugs at your heart because of the way the voice strains to reach those slightly high notes. and now "walk on" by U2's playing. "you could have flown away, a singing bird in an open cage who will only fly, only fly for freedom..."

the big V is coming. valentines day. my brother is appalled i ain't going out with any guy. what's the big deal? i don't know. all these guys who get so hung up about not having a date on friday. wake up! get over it...it's no big deal.love is born everyday, not just on valentine's day. not everyone was born on the same day.

we haven't turned around by gomez. haven't heard this in a while. not too bad. ah unfinished sympathy by massive attack. i dig some of massive attack's songs. not too bad. real groovy, a bit like portishead. slow, groovy, alternative. i like.

think i'll get some reading done now. nothing like escaping into another world, on a lazy holiday afternoon. escapism. that's why i read. books are doors to other worlds, all different from mine. stepping into someone else's shoes and walking in them. feeling all their emotions. reading all their thoughts. tasting their champagnes. feeling the wind forced out of their lungs when someone punches them in the stomach. feeling their anxiety and fear as they know they're losing someoone close to them. shedding their tears when they eventually do. laughing at the way life amuses them. fuming at the boyfriends who cheat on them. getting wasted and sharing in their delusions as they consume drugs and booze. excuse me. i'm just a girl, i get all emotional and personal. =P

"and i know it aches, how your heart it breaks, you can only take so much....walk on...."