ok maybe i was exagerating too much yesterday. about my weaknesses. i mean, i guess, though i get upset as easily as i say i do, i guess i usually get over it all quite fast. and well, i am a rather sensitive person but i guess i do know how to control my emotions and make sure i don't really do things i 'll regret. of course, there are instances when i do. and i guess i am a moderate. some things are allowed until they're disallowed and some things are disallowed until they're allowed. i'm just a bit more paranoid than others. that's all. because to me, anything's possible. and i hate getting involved in difficult, complicated, tense situations, therefore trying my best not to do so. maybe i just shouldn't take things so seriously. but i don't really. it's just that loneliness scares the shit out of me. but there are ways to overcome it and stare it straight in the face. after all, what's better than staring at fear straight in its eyes and rising above it?

nevertheless, i still haven't changed my agenda of how i'm going to improve things in my life as i had mentioned at the end of yesterday's blog. i'm still going to try and better myself, the only person to compete against, me. but one should never be TOO hard on one's self. it doesn't do us much good. we can scold ourselves, we can blame ourselves, we can do all that, but we must never forget to love and respect ourselves as well.

so i went to the skin specialist today, for my toe nails and this funny wort growing on my sole. i got liquid nitrogen sprayed on my sole. liquid nitrogen is about minus 149 degress celsius. how cool is that. haha. and let me tell you what's cooler...4 months mc from PE!!!! wooooh! maybe i can even skip stupid PFT! hah!

but the problem is, i do like PE sometimes. i don't mind running long distance without a stupid time limit. i don't mind playing games, cos, it's fuN! but i mind mass PE. i detest it! the way they join forces and arrange you in neat, beautiful formations, and smile sadistically at you, amused by their sick sense of humour, while dishing out combinations of torture, sprinkled with commands to shout sweet and sour nothings like.."HAPPY VALENTINE!!" or "I LOVE AC" or some crap...oooh, the nerve.

tomorrow's FOUNDERS DAY. it's supposedly a self-proclaimed holiday for many. but i think i'll go. i'd like to see what it's like. though i already know it's gonna be a bore. ok, maybe i just want to go out after that. haha. ah well, beats stoning at home. too much of it can kill. though a bit of it once in a while is excellent for the soul. a little bit of just doing nothing.

ok, tired of blogging.