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i actually thought i'd be studying chem tonight. what happened? i went to my room, sat on the bed, and that was it.....zzzzzzzzz.

i just had to download icqlite. was encountering some stupid runtime problem so i couldn't open the icq PRO. what the hell is this runtime thing? something to do with microsoft c+ or something. i'm a dummy at computers.

so there i was just now, preparing for catechism class tomorrow. it's sunday school basically. i just decided to teach this year, realising that my years of attending catechism weren't too fruitful and i'd immersed myelf in catholism not fully understanding in.by teaching now, i'm actually learning much more. reading up more about it. understanding the theories and concepts. questioning more. i believe in always searching for the truth. and well, at this moment, i do believe in God, i do subscribe to and agree with the teachings of jesus. he was a rather cool guy with real wise-ass answers that stumped the smart-allecks. and he was always defying the norms of society, abandoning its foolishness, and its lust for the worthless, befriending the tax-collectors and the prostitutes and the children whose opinions didn't matter to others. i guess the reason why i'm still staying on this path is because of that, and also because, the root of this path is love. and isn't love such a beautiful thing. god is certainly one helluva genius. love. what a creation. can u imagine life without love?

anyway i read up what i'm supposed to go through with my group tomorrow. and i have alot of questions because what goes on in reality seems to contradict what i've been reading up about catholism.

i believe that religion is just a way of life governed by a system of beliefs. and so, to each, his own. it's really subjective. i'm still learning. at the end of the day, all i want is the truth and to be truly joyous inside. not the fake kind of joy. the joy you get which only god ecan explain. the joy only the grace and love of god can provide.
the bottom line now. i do believe there's god. and yea, i have my reasons. some of which derive from really simple things which are yet so impactful. i'll tal;k about those some other time.

anyway since religion is such a subjective thing, noone really has the right to judge anyone else. how can i tell you that what you believe in is wrong? isn't existence based on faith? however, we should never stop striving for the truth. we should always keep an open mind at that, and never stray from our principles, what we believe in.

my dad always says that man's worst enemy is a closed mind. i somehow believe that to be true.