mad world by gary jules. my cousin introduced it to me. i felt really sad when i heard it for the first time. he had busted his knee again. and his soccer dreams semed to be crumbling away at that moment. and so, the chorus really got to me man. was just listening to it again just now. quite a song, simple and bittersweet-sounding. i like.

was supposed to be going to some club party today. yehui's, daxu's and lennard's. bought that ticket from daxu but sold it back on the same day. i decided i didn't feel like going. i love dancing believe me. i love good company, believe me. but i don't wanna spend my saturday night cooped up in a place stinking of cigarette smoke and booze. i can't stand looking at those people who're all tipsy from their drinks and are looking like total idiots. i can't stand the fact that people drink, knowing what they'll be like later, and yet doing it as an excuse for all the stupid, irresposible things they'll be doing later. and they do this to get high.

why do people have to get high this way? i tried it before. it just leaves me feeling emptier than ever. it leaves me with an empty feeling really. and seeing my friends all acting stupid and repulsive, just doesn't seem like an appealing way to spend my saturday nights and splurge on.

yehui wasn't too happy i backed out, i guess. they need to cover up the expenses to be able to break. these things cost money. maybe they would, but i don't think i'll be celebrating my birthday in a night club. for these reasons and more.

to each his own, i always say. shakespeare too.

funny thing is, now instead, i'm sitting here at home, blogging. lol. but that's ok. papa's going to take us kids out for dinner. i don't know if that is a good thing. they annoy me sometimes, the nagging, the sulking. brothers and father combined.

so i said i'm not an avid blog-reader. but the past hour, i've been doing that. reading blogs of people i don't even know. it's addictive and interesting, a window into the lives of others. some are really beautiful. people interest me all the time.

gotta run. my dad's here. dinner time!