i love that song.

what if what if what if what are you gonna do? i don't know. jamie said something today. "something could have happened so many times before it actually happened." i was telling her about how i almost ended up in MGS and how i probably might have actually got to know her then. but things worked out some other way, and i only finally got to know her when i stepped into AC. she was an MG girl. it's true. everything happens in His own time. so if we don't get what we want now, hang around a bit. something better is probably coming our way.

"nobody said it was easy...it's such a shame for us to part...nobody said it was easy....noone ever said it would be this hard...i'll take it back to the start..." and the bass and drums comes in a bit later, and it's all so ...aaaaah. that's what it makes you say.."aaaaah". the scientist by coldplay.

i was a heroine for a few seconds today. i saved a guy's hand. his hand got stuck between the lift doors and no matter what he did, it just would not open. poor kid. so i coolly walked to the buttons and pressed it, and set his poor hand free.he quickly walked into the lift, probably cussing under his breath. "why aren't the ****ing sensors dooing their ****ing job?" it didn't help that the final destination lift scene started playing in my head.

maybe i'll just talk about how i felt today. i was kinda irritated about something. a little sleepy. a few times, pleasantly amused. and at those times, entertained. a couple of times, there was a warm feeling in my heart. no, it wasn't love. i'm happy today. not delirious with joy. there's just none to be sad about. coldplay really grows on you. the songs i deemed boring in the past now echo of the walls of this place. my brother did a good job with the speakers.

"don't you shiv...eeerrrrr....eeer...eeeerrr.......i'll always be waiting for you."